Turning 33

I turned 33 nearly two weeks ago.  I love birthdays, I love to celebrate people having a birthday and I will confess, I like to celebrate mine as well.  Three years ago when I was approaching the big 'ole 30, I was terrified.  Terrified of what?  I don't remember.  It was just society working me up telling me that I am getting old.  Now, at the young age of 33, I have no idea why 30 was such a big deal.  I am a youngin'.  Now, that I've digressed about turning 30, let's move on.  

My cutie pie of a husband had a man event at church the night of my birthday.  So, I got to spend the evening with my handsome and adorable little men.  Aiden had been asking me for days to watch Iron Giant (an old movie, I think), so we watch it that night. I had Ethan on my lap snuggled up to me with his thumb in his mouth and his monkey jammed near his face.  Oh, how I love that boy of mine.  Aiden was somewhat close to me (we're still working on snuggling).  Anyhow, about 20 minutes into the movie, I thought how very blessed I am.  I mean beyond blessed, I was filled with such an emotional that I couldn't and still can't put words to it.  I am a mommy.  I am a mommy of two little boys.  A mommy who for over six years, prayed, cried, prayed more, faithfully trusted God, had heart aches and devastation, but trusted God through it all.  Snuggled up to me on the night of my 33rd birthday were my two gifts from God. At that moment I was fully satisfied with my life.  I felt like things were just right.


Does that mean there's nothing left to fight for?  Oh, no, everyday we have a fight.  Every day set before us, the Bible states we have a choice, "life or death, blessing or cursing."  The Word of God also talks about a fight of faith.   But in the fight we can rest is God's sweet presence.  I would say I'm a fighter.  I have fought for a lot of things in my life.  My husband and I fought for our boys.  In adoption you are your child's advocate.  Agency's will help you get your child home, but, I believe, ultimately it's up to how hard we fight.  Because, we will get pushed down and sometimes trampled on during an adoption process.  There will be news that your child is being placed with relatives or the country has closed down temporarily. All kinds of crazy things.  But, keep the faith, because if you are going through the process right now, soon you'll be sitting on the couch snuggling with your "gift". One day you can tell them just how hard you fought for them.  

Oh, and to top my birthday off, I had an amazing day out on the following Sunday with my hubby.  He got me a pedi at a glorious spa and then we had lunch.   Nothing fancy, but I did have the best onion rings EVER!!  My parents got me a few gift cards, one to one of my favorite stores!! On my bday, a fabulous friend made lunch for me!!  Life is good!!